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When The Year Doesn't Go As Planned



Well… 2023 certainly didn’t go to plan!


Starting with a hiss and a roar, I sailed into the year enthusiastic and fired up. I’d not long published my first book, Flourish, and I was in the process of promoting it, building my online course, and looking for speaking opportunities.


And yes, some of those things came together for which I am eternally grateful—speaking at summits, writing for magazines, being interviewed on podcasts, and continuing to write (here), the one thing I love more than anything, but other things did not go according to plan.


I didn’t build and monetise my business in the way I wanted to. I didn’t get the number of coaching clients I’d hoped to get. And, I didn’t sell the number of courses and books I’d planned to sell.


This had nothing to do with the amount of effort I was putting in. None. At. All. I worked my butt off. It just didn’t happen.


To say that I’m disappointed is an understatement. I’m deflated. I’m downtrodden. I’m questioning where to now.


We have these times, right? We all do. I know this.


So, I’m holding on to this knowing. I’m reviewing my options. I’m searching deep within my soul, asking it what it needs now.


I am pretty sure I will always write. And, for now, I think I want to keep sharing what I’m learning in life in the hope that it helps others. But other than that, I’m not sure.


I’ve always been a doer so it’s hard not to know, to not have a clear direction, and it’s even harder to admit this. I’m stuck. I’m well and truly stuck. But that’s okay. Everyone gets stuck once in a while and being stuck is part of getting to be unstuck, so I’m doing my darndest to embrace my stuckness.


What I’m also doing is trying to step away from thinking about it too much, although I admit I’m not doing so well at this right now. I watch videos, meditate, read books, and want to make a new action board, but I know that at the moment, all of that is futile. I know deep within my soul that the answer will come when I least expect it—when I’m out walking with my dog, when I’m at the craft store picking something up or when I’m in our veggie garden harvesting the next section of my potato crop. It won’t come by badgering my head with questions and rituals and lessons and instructions and trying to do something about it. The answer about what is next will come when it is good and ready.


The one thing that will contribute, is surrendering. I know that. I’m not good at it though.


But I’m willing to keep trying to understand how to let go.


I’d love to know, how was 2023 for you? Please share your experiences with us in the comments.


With love, Kathryn x


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